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| Sunday, June 28, 2009 |
I worked so hard for past 6 months,
hardly get any free time during weekends due to FYP & IAP,
So now when I'm free I just hope to spend quality and quantity time with you,
but you told me you've got to work.
Who didn't want to spend time with their boyf/girlf during weekends?
I tired putting my feelings aside to compromise with you.
But it doesn't take one night to adapt.
I know how hard you gonna work,
I try not to grumble.
Pardon me for the harsh words,
I just blurt it out without going through my mind.
I'm just being too straight forward I guess.
That's just me.
I don't feel good recently,
Still being bothered by the rejection from MOE.
Trying hard to look for a full time job.
Send around 15 resumes for the past 2 days but none reply.
How am I gonna survive with that little income I earned from working 22hours per week?
I tried to control spending on "unnecessary" stuffs,
but when I'm in a negative mood,
I'll tend to shop and eat and shop.
Sometimes I'll just grumble,
Life is so unfair.
People born in silver spoons are envy.
But different family has their own story to tell.
I worked so hard, I tried so hard,
but sometimes I see no result that got me feeling so dejected.
Must I really go through one big round to persue to my dreams?
Or will I be able to accompolish my dream in the first place?
No doubt I'll keep trying.
Just that too many rejection is killing me.
Everyone have a tree for shelter,
but who will be the tree to give me shelter?
Sometimes when I'm down, I don't see anyone around.
I need a get away,
but there's no one that can bring me away.
:<
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| 3:21 AM |
| Tuesday, June 23, 2009 |
Dear God,
What have I done wrong to deserve this punishment?
I witness my own dream drifting further away from me,
my heart aches, I felt disappointed.
Ashamed I should say and I just feel like curling under my blanket.
One step backwards from the stepping stone,
and now I'm back to square one.
My mind's screaming to get out of this current job of mine.
Cabin Crew, I failed.
Allied Educator, I failed.
For a moment, I just felt my world's crumbling down.
Why, WHY can't my little dream be fullfill?
What's wrong with me?
I really worked hard.
Can't you feel it?
Maybe I'm just a little nervous when attending interviews,
but I tired so hard to hide it away.
I wanted the job not because of money,
but for passion can't you see?
I don't mind working for free.
I didn't look for other job after the interview,
cause I've confidence in myself thinking that my passion will make it through,
but I was wrong.
Maybe I'm just too dumb and ugly.
Sigh.
I'm really very upset.
Goodnight.
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| 1:28 AM |
| Tuesday, June 16, 2009 |
Where has happiness gone to?
I can't feel it at all,
but living in worries and doubts.
:(
Dear God,
If you hear me.
Please fullfill my little humble dream.
Thanks a trillion.
With loves,
Michelle.
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